January 22, 2007
~ Layer by layer...
I try not to think about an email that made me feel indignant for the past 4 days. Because the more I think about it, the more I seem to realise that it was never an issue of 'growing up' or 'freedom'.
The issue that was so obscurely hidden was a lack of readiness to commit, and hence, a lack of commitment. And maybe, the warped pursue of a totally warped kind of reality.
But, you know what, I try to tell myself I'm going through (yet another) transition. And I try not to think about it. I try to let each day pass. After all, I've replied the email. Good enough.
But, I'm supposed to keep to my resolution of telling people how I feel when I feel it. So, if you really want to know what I'm thinking behind this attempt to not think about it... Currently, my thought is 'you can rot in hell.' For now.
So... is this realistic then?
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 23:18